Tribute to Nala

Yesterday would have been Nala's 13th birthday. Seeing the reminder on my phone, I realised just how much I missed her. How each time she would welcome me home, even though she's sleepy. How she used to lay claim her spot on our bed. How she would lick my tears off my face when you-know-who made me cry. How she would curl up in my arms and we'd both fall asleep. How she'd listen to me pouring out my grievances and seem to understand. How she'd play catch with me. How she used to lie down on my Harry Potter book when I wanted to read it. How she'd keep me company when I watched LOTR for hours. How she used to sulk when I had to be away in Stockholm for work. How she'd be on my lap when she's sick and vying for some TLC.

Nala, though you are no longer with me, you will always live in my heart. I could not ask for a better daughter. I know you are in a better place now and I hope to be with you again one day.

Everyday is Exactly the Same

To cheer myself up, saw the movie "Wanted" on DVD. Not really a fan of Jolie but I think James McAvoy is such a babe. *stop rolling your eyes Sharm & Sumi* Sure, he's no Ralph Fiennnes but still adorable in his own way. I think I fell in love with him when I saw The Atonement" but that's another story. I love the theme song and feel it sort of reflect what I'm going through right now...

Everyday is Exactly the Same - Nine Inch Nails

I believe I can see the future

Cause I repeat the same routine

I think I used to have a purpose

But then again

That might have been a dream

I think I used to have a voice

Now I never make a sound

I just do what I've been told

I really don't want them to come around

Oh, no Every day is exactly the same

Every day is exactly the same

There is no love here and there is no pain

Every day is exactly the same

I can feel their eyes are watching

In case I lose myself again

Sometimes I think I'm happy here

Sometimes, yet I still pretend

I can't remember how this got started

But I can tell you exactly how it will end

Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I'm writing on a little piece of paper

I'm hoping someday you might find

Well I'll hide it behind something

They won't look behind

I'm still inside here

A little bit comes bleeding through

I wish this could have been any other way

But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do

Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

Letting Go

Today I did the hardest thing I thought I never ever have to do. But looking at my almost non-existent savings, I knew I had no choice. So I calmly told my weekly helper that I could no longer afford to pay her and asked if she'd be ok financially, she said she could manage as my house was not the only one she's cleaning. I explained that times are really bad and once our financials are in order, would she like it if I were to call her back. Thankfully, she said she would love to come back. So it's settled. One less thing I have to pay for. But I really feel bad...

7 Pounds

Yesterday, Fatin, hubby and I watched 7 Pounds, courtesy of my editor friend, who normally has complimentary tickets to give away. Starring Will Smith, the movie kicked off to a slow start, which I think made my tired hubby 'snoozed' for a while.

I had no idea where the movie was headed but thought it strange an IRS officer would go through such lengths to audit. Suffice it to say that the movie picked up its pace and I didn't feel it went as long as two hours. Not wanting to spoil the movie for those who have yet to see it, all I can say is it's one of Will Smith's best efforts. Can't compare it to "In Pursuit of Happyness" coz I haven't seen that yet. Moral of the story, don't look at your text messages while driving...

Time flies when you'e having fun...

I had a pretty good week coz a certain someone wasn't around. Also, with the de-cluttering that I did, I found loads of stuff I've been missing. So if time permits, I will start a new blog on stuff I wanna sell...see if you like anything and let me know, ok?

To go or not to go?

In the spirit of de-cluttering my home, I’ve decided to sell my flights to Bandung & Bali. Wasn’t even thinking of making money. Maybe sell it at 50% discount of what I paid and the buyer would also have to pay the fee to change the names. Or so I thought. After scrutinising the tickets, I saw, to my dismay, that no name changes are permitted. Damn. I know I shouldn’t go, I know I can’t afford to but passing up a paid flight to Bandung is really too hard to bear. I would still have to pay for hotel, transportation, airport tax & food. Don’t even get me started about shopping!

My dear friend, who is the editor of Cosmo Mag, gave me a brilliant suggestion. She said I should take orders from my friends on what to buy, pay upfront, of course. Stay in a budget hotel and tapau food from home. That’s the problem you see, food is damn delicious and dirt cheap in Bandung…

So what should I do? Should I go?

Why I'm not a fan of Facebook

My dear friend currently working in UK texted me this morning that our mutual ex-colleage and his wife is also in London. Bewildered that she actually kept in touch with him, I quickly texted back on how that happened? She then said he saw her on facebook and left a message. Hmm, have never liked facebook. Don't really care if people think I'm outdated, just because I don't have facebook. What happened to my friend is proof enough, why I don't and should never have one...

Online Flea Market

I used to love going to flea markets at Mont Kiara and The Curve, hunting for any Lord of the Rings memorabilia or cutesy cat stuff. I haven't done that in a while and for good reason. So when I discovered that my colleague has been buying clothes online, that sort of gave me an idea. What if I sell my stuff online?

It will take a while to set it up, mind you. Sorting stuff I wanna sell or donate. Then taking pictures of it, posting it online. Taking note of the size of clothes am thinking of selling, maybe a short note on where I got it. As at now, I have about 4 boxes of saleable clothes and I haven't even begun digging onto hubby's treasure trove.

So give me some ideas. What should I name my site?

It worked!

Remember how I tried to reduce my electricity buy buying a new ceiling fan? I'm happy to report that after a month, my electricity bill has been halved...

Good on me :)

De-cluttering my life

I apologise for my short hiatus, wasn't in the mood for writing. As per "The Secret" mantra, I promised myself that I'll never focus on the negative, on the bad news, on what I did not want. Hence why there was not update on this blog. But even after 2 weeks of "visualising" the positive, I could not get myself out of the vicious cycle.

So I guess I needed to purge. Which I did, to those closest to me. Do I feel any better? Not really. Being hit with three bad news consecutively was draining me down.

So after watching one of Oprah's show, I decided I needed to de-clutter my home. And donate or sell what I don't need. And hopefully, that would be the change that I desperately needed...